I love writing because it’s an opportunity for me to connect to people through my words. As I began writing on this blog and continued to write posts, I enjoyed hearing that people felt moved by my stories and felt touched by my writing. I became eager to write and wanted to work on my craft. My goal became to write on this blog so I could express myself while reaching the hearts of others.
And so, the research began. I started participating in writing webinars and reading up on the art of writing. I compiled lists of my favorite authors and writers so I could study their process. I took out books at the library and signed up for online courses so I could learn as much as I could about the industry. While these tasks were meant to inspire me, it actually did the opposite. I started comparing myself to other writers and how well spoken they were, how quickly they got published, how many followers they attracted, how often they wrote a compelling piece, and the list goes on.
I started doubting myself as a writer. I didn’t think I was a good enough writer to even be called a writer. I felt like I shouldn’t even think of myself as a writer because that was a title for people who were real writers. The doubt spiraled and I decided to cut back on writing. I told myself that I would pick up writing once I felt more comfortable. Days, weeks, months passed. I jotted notes down here and there, but told myself I wasn’t ready to write again.
As I look back on this, I realize that I was the one who decided that I was unworthy of being a writer. I didn’t do something I enjoyed for months because I told myself I wasn’t good enough. And I robbed myself of the joy writing brings me because I compared myself to others instead of focusing on myself. I wanted to be a writer and I took that away from myself, simply by believing that I wasn’t worthy of that title.
I think sometimes we get so caught up in knowing what we want but fear traps us into thinking that it won’t happen for us. I had convinced myself that I was unworthy, when in reality, our worth is defined well beyond the things we are good at. I told myself not to write, that my voice wasn’t loud enough or my tone wasn’t clear enough. But those things don’t matter if I don’t even put the words out there at all. What matters is that I enjoy what I am doing, and people feel connected to the stories that I share.
It’s so easy to believe that we aren’t worthy of all the amazing things this life has to offer. Sometimes it makes more sense to think that we are destined to only do what our to do list tells us to, but I promise you that there is a much bigger world out there when we allow ourselves to unapologetically go after what we want. Life becomes that much more grand and colorful when we know that we are worth all the joy and happiness that comes our way!
So whatever goals you have, whatever journey you want to take, know that you are worthy of making all those dreams come true. If you have a dream you want to revisit, write it down and say it out loud. Share it with those close to you so you may be reminded to continue to pursue it. And above all else, remember that you are worth all those dreams coming true.